I know I haven't written a non family related post in a while....I guess this is kind of related, some what. I'm having this inner conflict.
On one hand...I see my friends with new babies and I want to try again. I want another member of our little family, I new child to love. I mean, most days I love being a Mom and taking care of my family.
On the other...I have friends that are finding their hobbies and their passions and turning them into a job. And I'm slightly jealous of that. To have time to myself, to work on something I care about, to earn something.
I just don't know what path to take, what's right for me. I know no one can tell me what to do, that it's a decision we have to make...I'm just putting this out there. Something I can look at and read. Doesn't it help to see things written out.
Why can't there be a little guide book we each have. That, when life puts one of these life choices and you're having a hard time figuring it out you could just pick up said book, thumb through the pages and find out which choice would take you where. I mean, there are choices that I have no problem seeing where we should head. This has just always been a tough one for me.
I hate it. Bah! Maybe I'll feel better in the morning.