How do I forget so easily??

This is a post with two meanings. First, the mundane everyday side. How do I forget so easily how EVIL caffeine is? How do I forget how crabby and nasty I get to my sweet little girl when I'm getting that toxin out of my veins? I can vividly recall my last night after the ball, the one that made me swear never to drink again. Why is it so much harder with caffeine? I feel so much better with out it. I really need to remember my crabby behavior to WonderKid last night. And the moment this morning when I realized that my actions are showing my little girl the wrong picture of being a Mommy, expecially a Mommy that loves God. In fact, I was showing her the wrong picture of God last night. Please Lord, help me to remember that realization and the sickness it brought to my stomach.
Which brings me to the second meaning of my title. How do I so easily forget how good it feels when I read my Bible and pray? In a time when I'm usually depressed (when Mr.W is out of town) I feel peace. I feel happy. How good it feels when I tell God that I no longer want to try and have control over my life. That I want Him to take care of it all. I don't want to worry about it anymore. He can take care of where we're heading next, whether he have another child or not, when we'll get our bills paid off. Not that I expect to sit back and do nothing. But there are just somethings it doesn't do to worry over. And I've been spending too much time on them. I don't want to hold on to the things of the past. My hurts, disappointments, feelings of failure. How can that help me in any way? I don't want to focus too much on the future. Where I spend so much time planning out what will happen with us, to have none of it come to pass just as I wanted it too...and then be disappointed all over again. No thank you! I want to focus on the now. My time with my friends and family. The joy I get watching my daughter grow up and learn. The love I feel when I see my husband playing with my daughter, building a bond..and memories. A bond that will help us stay strong as a family when he's deployed for long stretches.
I just want to feel lighter. Not hang on to all the pressure I was letting in my life. Pressure over nothing. And I feel that today. I feel lighter and it feels good.

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Time Of Day Are You?

New Layout

I know I know, so sue me! Here's the layout I did for WonderKid's school picture. Isn't she just too cute.
So, the yellow box has the stats (school name, teacher, grade, place.) The little red box has her age. And then....(those who have seen Dude, where's my car? will appreciate that) in the yellow border around her picture I wrote her various favorites (friend, after school playmate, books to read, part of the school day, thing to learn at school). I really like it it. It's simple, but the patterned paper give it a little umph.

My Secret Identities

Okay, I lied! This is the last one for today. I saw this on my sisters blog and I had to do it on mine. Too cute! (I have deleted some words for effect)
1.YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current street name) Dusty Woods
2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (favorite cookie, fav ice cream flavor) SnickerDoodle Roof
3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of first name, first 3 or 4 letters of your last name): K-Long
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) Pink Puggle
5. YOUR PORNO NAME: (most recent pet, grandma's (or moms)maiden name) Butch Murray
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, last 4 letters of mom's maiden name) Lon Ki Murr
7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink put "The") The Green Juice
8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers/grandmothers) Doris Ila
9. STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne) Be Delicious
10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name) Lee Franklin

Thanksgiving

I think one of the best things about being in the military is the second family you make where ever you're living. I'm talking about our family of friends. Making friends can be tough. But no one can truly understand the tough life of being a military family more than another military family. Once you make those friends, it's easy to become very close to them. And it's great to have them to spend holidays with when you're not able to get home to your first family. This Thanksgiving we went up to Quanitco and spent the holiday with some great people. Mr.Wonder's friend from his first duty station (where we met) has been living up there for almost 6 months and we just recently learned about it. His wife found me on Myspace (it's not totally evil, as Mr.W seems to think.) They came down to see us on Columbus day and while they were here we decided to do Thanksgiving together. It was a ton of fun! The drive up there was tough, but the trip was well worth the traffic. Dinner was great and we had fun playing this dance off game. It was so funny. I'll now show you how dorky we can still be! WonderKid wanted to play this thing all night though she has no coordination on it (she's still a little too young for it). Mr.W and I could not stop laughing!
Tomorrow I'll post about our trip to the National Museum of the Marine Corps! I don't want to over load you all with posts. All 2 of you that still check this thing! ;)

It's been a while...

I know it's beena while since I've been on here. I guess I just haven't felt like I have much to talk about. Or the things that I would talk about will change in the span of a day so what's the point in posting them anyway. There were a few notable things that have occured over the last month. First was the Marine Corps Ball. We had a blast and the whole next day I layed in bed or threw up. I have sworn off alcohol since that day and have had no desire to touch the stuff. Heh heh! I wasn't much of a drinker anyway, but that night just sealed it.
Here's the "official" ball picture.
It was a good night!

School Picture

WonderKid's Kindergarten picture. I can't believe how big she's getting. Sometimes, it just doesn't seem fair that they have to grow up so fast. Other times I wish it would hurry up.

Costume Layout

So, I did the layout for WonderKid's Halloween costume. I wanted to make it kind of look like a comic book. I'm not sure if it does or not, but I like how it turned out. It's simple but different. I love the new pens I used that can write/color on picutres. They really helped emphasize the pieces of the costume. I think I should have used a darker blue, but I can live with the blue I chose. Let me know what you think....

Share time...

So there will probably be two posts today. I know, calm down everyone. I was going to do the second one yesterday but I had to recharge the battery in my camera so I couldn't upload the pics. I wanted to share some good things that happened. Well, to me they're great but I don't want to hype them up and you all think I'm crackers for thinking they're great. But to me they are.
First, last night I slept the whole night. 7 hours straight!! No hacking child waking me up, no potty breaks to interrupt my slumber. I was so surprised when I woke up, looked at the clock and say 5:35. I was blown away. I simply cannot recall the last time this happened. I'm not even exaggerating. Mr.Wonder was not home (ops week) and WonderKid stayed in her room all night. I feel so good today...a little lazy, but that's just mental not physical like usual. ;)
Second, the guilt is slowly sliding away. The guilt to which I'm referring is my guilt of the finicky eating habits of WK. All of you know the battles I've dealt with concerning her and food. WonderKid+New Foods= BATTLE!
I'm reading this great book called Momfidence!-An Oreo Never Killed Anybody and Other Secrets of Happier Parenting, it's by Paula Spencer. I read about said book on one of my favorite blogs Suburban Turmoil. I have to say thanks to Lindsay if she ever reads this. I LOVE THIS BOOK! This book is about relaxing and not worrying so much about how you're parenting. Not being guilt ridden if you're not measuring up to that unreachable goal of being the perfect parent. I just finished a chapter called You can lead a child to carrots, but you can't make them eat them. It seems Paula has the same problem with her oldest as I do with WK. And you know what? She doesn't feel guilty that her son wants only certain types of food all the time. She actually references a story about a 15 year old boy from England. Who is completely healthy and grew up on a diet of only jam sandwiches, milk, cereal, and chocolate cake. This may be stretched a little but I see where she's going anyway. I have been feeling endless guilt about this eating situation with WK. It's made me feel like and inadequate mother. But I've realized that I can keep trying with WK without the guilt. I can't make her try new foods. I can offer them. But I'm not going to lose sleep if she doesn't want it, if she wants her nuggets or her cereal or her certain kind of spaghetti sauce. I'm not going to let the opinions of other effect my opinion of myself as a mother. I have a sweet girl who loves me. And she seems to think I'm doing a pretty good job. So what everyone else thinks, doesn't really matter that much to me anymore. Yeah! One more hurdle has been cleared.
If you can you should really check out this book. It's great and humor filled. I'm going to get back to reading it right now.

Secret Identitiy

IMPORTANT NEWS UPDATE: Wonder Woman's identity has been revealed. It is none other than my own WonderKid! Amazing, I know. Who'd have thought that I would be part of such an important revelation. Heh heh! I really can't wait for Halloween!

Last two...

Alrighty...here are the last two for a bit. I have a bit of a reprieve until Halloween and the Ball have passed. Then it's on to the holidays. We've been lucky enough to have been invited to our friends place for Thanksgiving up in Quantico, Va. We're really excited to head up there. It's going to be a really fun time. In the 2 page layout the upper corner is really dark, just to let you know it says bowling. It's a very simple layout, there were just so many pics, I didn't want to over do it.
I"ll try and get back to posting about the normal mundane stuff now.

New Scrappy Pages

I know I haven't been on here in a while. Just living life. WonderKid's getting a little under the weather. Hopefully it'll pass quickly. She has her school pictures tomorrow, she's so excited. I'll post those as soon as I get them. I can't believe how quickly the time passes once they start school. It really is weird! So, I did a couple of pages today and I thought I'd share. The Christmas one I did a while ago, just never got around to posting it. I like getting in these mini scrapping moods. I've done 4 layouts and a total of 5 pages. I might do one or two more layouts tonight, but I won't post them till tomorrow, if I end up doing them. Oh, and yes....I'm rambling. The Evening Primrose Oil is working great so far. I have only a little witchiness so far this cycle and NO nausea. I am so so so happy about that. Okay, enough rambling...here are the layouts. Any advice you might have would be greatly appreciated.

Not too sure...

Okay, I'm not so sure about this page. It started out really good, but then I didn't know what to do for the lettering...so I did it myself. And the little doodles under it...It's not terrible (at least I don't think it is, but what do I know?) but I don't think it's a favorite. Eh, on to the next...
ps..Pup, I have a feeling this is going to be one of those ones we were talking about, where I look at it a little while form now and go, "What was I thinking?"

Oh...and the title says There's nothing quite like a Mother's love

On a roll...

I know I know, but here's another one. Now that I've started, I just can't stop. You'll have to just bear with me until I catch up on my stuff. I don't have that much stuff left to do...for now. So there will be a break. This one turned out pretty cute.

Pouting

Pouting becomes her, no?
WonderKid in all her glory!

Favorite Page

So I did this page last night and this morning. It is one of my all time favorite pages. I actually took the picture of her sleeping last night specifically so I could do this page. WonderKid listens to a Christmas CD everynight for bed. It has a bunch of songs from all the classic clamation/puppet type Christmas movies. There is one song on there that I absolutely LOVE. It's called There's Always Tomorrow. I think it's from the one where Jack Frost falls in love. I always try and stay to listen to that song because I love it so much. I'll post the words below and you'll see why it's perfect for this type of picture. So those are the words down the side of the page. LOVE IT!

There's always tomorrow
For dreams to come true
Believe in your dreams
Come what may...

There's always tomorrow
There's so much to do
And so little time in a day

We all pretend
The rainbow has an end
And you'll be there again
Someday

There's always tomorrow
For dreams to come true
Tomorrow is not far away

Post Pup Pages

So, I've done a few pages since my sister, Pup, left. I'm afraid I get all my inspiration from her. I don't hate the pages I've done...but I'm not as in love with them as some others I've done. You be the judge...

Double Layouts

Here are the double paged layouts. There are quite a few, bear with me. I was a busy girl this week!

Single Layouts

Many of you know it's been a lllooonnnnggg time since I've scrapbooked. Almost a year (with a random page here or there)...so when my sister came for a visit, we basically scrapped the whole time with breaks to go to scrapbooking sotres! Ha Ha! We threw in a park and mall visit every once in a while. I had a wonderful time hanging out with her. It was like bringing a little piece of back home to my new home of the moment. So I wanted to share some of the layouts I've done over the past week. I'll do the single page layouts on this post and the double pages on another. I'm really pleased with how most of them turned out, the ones I'm not as crazy about...I left out. ;) Here we go....

I really love how in the last one, WonderKid is the only one in color...hope you like them.

For the love of Pink...

Only those of you that have seen the TV episodes of the Bratz will fully appreciate that post title! I have a fifth love of my life...and the order is as such: God, Mr.Wonder, WonderKid, My pink dyson, my ipod nano. I love my new ipod! I used to have the shuffle, which was nice, you just never knew what song was coming. I love seeing what's playing, being able to have more than one playlist. And there are even more ammenities that I have yet to explore. We're able to use them in our car which is sooo nice. So many more songs at my finger tips. I even have a playlist for WonderKid, lucky we like alot of the same songs. I also LOVE the pink earbuds I ordered for them. This site has pink, blue and black earbuds.... if you're sick of the old white that comes with EVERY ipod. This is especially nice if one of those colors are your favorite, which you all know is true true in my case. Just wanted to share my joys. I'm waiting anxiously for my dress, I can't wait to get it so I can try it on. I've got an idea for jewelry, not too much since the dress has that cute pin on the waist. And Erina...I'll remember your advice when I visit the MAC counter. I would rah-tha not look like a clown for the ball, or worse a hooker. Ya know what I mean?!

Un-funny comments

Mr.Wonder keeps making these comments about getting shot or blown up. He'll be talking about what he's going to do the last 3 years of his military career (we're going to go to a non-deployable unit and just chill out), then he'll stick, "that is if I don't get blown up first.." in there. That is so NOT FUNNY! He's always acted like he was never worried about this happening and he'd always tell me not to worry (yeah, like that would happen), that I'd be stuck with him forever. But now he slips these comments in every once in a while. Like he's preparing me or something. I DON'T LIKE IT!

The MCB

Okay, I am super excited about this....so I just had to share. Every year Mr.Wonder and I go to the Marine Corps Ball, as he's a Marine. For the last several years I have been wearing the same dress. Don't get me wrong, I love the dress...I just wanted to get something new this year. And the dress to the left is what I've found. I LOVE IT! It's very similar to my old dress (the cut is pretty much the same, that cut looks great on me, so why mess with a good thing?) but the big difference is that my old dress was solid black and was one length. This dress had the tulle layer underneath, love that, and it's polka-dotted...white (and I don't know if you can see this in the picture) and pink! You heard right folks...PINK! Now do you get my over excitement? I will add the link to the dress here so you can look at it up close if you'd like. It's a great site, Windsor Store...they've got awesome stuff. I found the shop when we lived in California, wish they had them here. Wait, no I don't...then a ton of other chicks would have my dress at the ball. No way Jose! So, I'm super excited, November 3rd can't come soon enough. The In-laws are coming in so we can stay the night in the hotel. I love them for this, they do it every year. It's so unbelievably sweet of them. And WonderKid loves having her Grandparents come and hang out with her...so it's a win-win situation. I've got shoes, now I just have to figure out hair make-up and jewelry. I think we might actually get pictures this year. I also thought of going to the MAC counter and having them do my makeup. We'll see, I've got a little time to sort everything out. Should I keep the dress a surprise for Mr.W? What do you think?

The dark cloud...

...has lifted! I know I've been very glum on here these last couple weeks. Yesterday I woke up a brand new woman! PMs is so weird that way! I was back to my normal, goofy self. Last night I kept messing with Mr.Wonder and he just kept laughing and laughing. It's such a relief! It's like a complete 180. I hate that I'm like that for a certain period of time every month. Mr.W was always asking what was wrong...what could he do? The answer was nothing. I could not get out of my funk, no matter how hard I tried. There were brief moments, but they were few and far between. This was the worst case of it I ever had! I'm trying to be preventive for next month (I don't even know if that's a word ;)). I'm trying this stuff called Evening Primrose Oil to help with PMS symptoms. If that doesn't work in the next couple of months I have one other thing to try. But I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. I really hope something will work. I don't think I can go through another month like that. I don't want to put my family through it. I am optimistic about my chances. I have to be. I'm just happy to be me!

Plans change...

So, some of you know that Mr.Wonder and I have been discussing adding a WonderBun to the family. We had actually made the decision to try. Well, we really thought we might be this month...and it TERRIFIED us! I'm not just saying we were scared. Thinking we might be really made us realize how much we love our family the way it is. I've been dwelling on the decision of having another child so much lately.
I've realized it's because I'm afraid of having a life outside my daughter. I mean, now that she's starting school. I can go back to work or school. What if I decide to do that and totally eff it up! What if I suck at what I want to do?! How totally embarassing! What if I fail! I am so against failing...that's why I didn't try for any scholarships in high school, I never took AP classes (though I could have), I didn't take my SATs until June of my senior year. What if I really wanted to go to school and I totally blew my SATs and no one wanted me? Couldn't deal with that, so I just didn't do it. I ended up doing fairly well on the SATs (1210, yes, I'm bragging, but I'm very proud of that!) and had I taked them earlier in my high school career I could have gotten some help to go to school. I was just too afraid of failure. Rejection and failure, two of my worst fears....
I can't be totally mad at myself for not going to college, if I had I'd never have met Mr.Wonder and had WonderKid. Now that I have this time and opportunity, I want to try. But I am still at a loss as to what I'd want to do as a career...I had the same problem back in the day. I'm just so afraid of trying. I don't want to be. I guess that just means I need to try something!
Uh, this ended up being different than I thought it would. I just meant to talk about how we decided we're keeping our family the way it is...PERFECT, for us!

OUR FAMILY...LUCKY #3!

Doodled Ramblings...

Words are like water as they flow from my soul
With meaning they can nourish...with none, they are lonely
As they fly on their own, my heart beats faster
They mean so much, what if no one else understands?

Confusion is my constant companion
A part of me
Never knowing which path I should wander down
Take my leisurely stroll...walking aimlessly
Where will my path end?
Will I ever find what I'm looking for?
Will I find what I need?

Pink is the new....EVERYTHING!

I have a love affair with the color PINK! For a long time now, I have been obsessed with the color pink. I haven't gone to the extremes of making a whole room pink or anything. Though I would LOVE pink Jeep like in the Jessica Andrews' Good Times video, maybe brighter though. I'm not sure why I have this passion for a color, but it's there, none the less. I've come a long way from my younger days. I used to be a major tomboy, I was even mistaken for a boy once. I was against all things girly. I was a little in between in high school, always wanting to be more girly but never knowing quite how to pull it off. When I started college, I really tried to embrace my inner girl. That is whem my affair began. It started out slowly, but it's grown over the years. I recently purchased the pink Razr and tricked it out with a pink camo cover.
And today, my dreams came true. Mr.Wonder gave me the okay to buy my dream vacuum. Yes! That's right, I am now the proud Momma of a pink Dyson vacuum. I was a little disappointed that the pink wasn't brighter, I am WAY more into bright pink. I still love love love it! I can't wait to use it...have to wait for Wonderkid's movie to be over. My man really knows how to make me happy. He will definitely be getting some displays of my lovin tonight. Not like I can be bought or anything....hell, what am I saying? Of course I can!
update: I just used the Dyson! It runs like a dream! It's no where near as loud as most vacuums...and it's so easy to push around! I am so glad that I, I mean we, got this beautiful machine. Now I'll never mind vacuuming! I'm thinking that's what Mr.W was thinking.
update2: I have also purchased pink ear buds for my i-pod nano! Yeah! I am sooo cool!