A thought struck me the other day...will my daughters see me as I saw my Mom??
I LOVE my mother. But, back in the day I just thought of her as an old lady who I was sometimes embarrassed to be seen with. I wouldn't say that I was as embarrassed as some kids I knew, but there were times. I realized as I got older, however, that I really took my Mom and Dad for granted. They are GREAT people and WONDERFUL parents. I consider myself and my sisters very lucky girls to have them. But will my daughters feel that way about me? I am trying to prepare myself slowly for this. When will Rye stop looking at me as her best bud, stop proudly claiming, "That's my Mom," to the kids at the park...and start the, Geez Mom, c'mons.
I guess it's just that I don't feel old! I don't feel like a MOM! Do you know what I mean? I don't feel as if I should be frumpy. I still feel pretty close to what I did in my high school and college days. Did my mother feel like this? Did she feel like saying, "Hey! I am still young. I am not to be written off. I am still sexy." I prolly would have laughed had she ever said anything like that but I've been thinking lately. Now a days Moms do seem to be much more hip, if you will. More into the fashions and taking care of themselves into their later years. It's just something I've been thinking about lately. I'm not sure if I'll ever have the answers I'm looking for. I guess this is one of those things that you have to learn and deal with as you go. Take it as it comes. Maybe I'm never have the answers, maybe there are no answers. I just have to keep going and doing whats best for me and my family. That's really all I can do and let the Lord take care of the rest. Thanks for taking my rambling in stride.
Grief in Time
6 years ago
2 comments:
Sometimes it takes us to go thru things to relize what we have right? All we can do is our best.. as parents maybe we can remember things we agreed with or disagreed with that our parents did and learn from them and either pass things on or don't. As the looking good part.. I do think that certain people care about what they look like and fashion HAIR ect.. it all depends on you and how you feel about yourself.. I know I'm not gonna be a funky mom and I would never let you get there! I love you.
Kimi, I think you are awesome. You are a good mom and you are goofy and funny and Rye will go through a period of rolling her eyes at your actions, but she will grow out of that and everything will be fine.
You are a hip, cool, gorgeous mom, and Rye (and he new sister) are lucky to have you!!
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