Sunday, May 17, 2009

I know I have some pictures on my camera that I wanted to put on here, there were some on Eric's camera that I didn't get off before he left.  But I just don't feel like posting them.  These last few days have been kind of weird.  I'm just kind of in a haze.  Kind of numb I guess.  I feel like Eric is out in the field, or just at work.  I don't think it's really sunk in that he's gone.  Maybe if I stay in this haze it will go by quicker.  Our trip home really is my saving grace.  I need family and friends.  I just need them.  I feel so broken when he's not here.  He really is the best part of me.
I am glad I have the girls with me.  I see so much of him in them.  Jo is more like him day by day.  I really think she'll be his 'mini-me'.  I always thought Rye looked and acted like him, but that was before Jo.  Rye is becoming more like me as the days go by.  I'm not sure how good that is.  Haha!  
I guess I need to get out of this funk I'm in.  There's so much I need to do while Eric is gone.  I have a list of bills I need to pay off, a front walk way that needs to be weeded (I HATE GARDENING!), I need to start working out again (I always put it off when he's home, I want to look fierce when he gets home) and I have a house that needs a good deep cleaning.  At some point they will come and  gut my kitchen.  I need to find out their intended date for that.  I need to let them know when I plan to be gone.   I'll do that tomorrow.
I should go now, Jo wants cheese.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Aww...keep smiling. You had me crying reading this! Miss you
~Michelle

Heather said...

Don't worry he will behome soon and just focus on the girls, they will help you through it. Having been through it all I can say is just go day by day and look forward to the next and what it will bring. Nothing anyone says can change the way you feel I know, so stay happy.
Miss you and can't wait for you to come home either. Glad you posted, wondered how you've been.

Scott & Chris said...

Just when I thought I'd cried all of my tears out...then I read this and they just started up again. Scott left friday morning and I'm totally right there with you. It just plain sucks.