Tuesday, September 05, 2006

And I Cried...


So, I did it! I was one of those mothers that cried when the bus pulled away. I didn't think I would, I was fine last year for preschool...maybe it was easier because I took her and I had met her teacher, seen her classroom. I don't know, but I did it today. She was very excited to go, lots of kids in our apartment complex were there waiting for the bus too. As it got closer, I could tell she was getting a little more nervous. I can't believe my baby is a Kindergartener! I felt like such a fool, crying. Mr.Wonder had the day off so he went to the bus stop with us. It was easier to have his shoulder to cry on, though he didn't understand it. I can't say I do either. I felt better when I heard the Mom behind me sniffling. Another Mom said, "I cried the whole frist week I took my son last year, and I drove him to school." So, I know I'm not alone.
I'm not sad, I think I'm scared for her. I'm scared kids will be mean to her. I've seen this already at parks, she's so open and willing to play with anyone, it hurts my heart to see her rudely ignored by other children. I'm scared she'll be over-whelmed. I'm scared she'll be scared. I won't be there to help her through it. That hurts me. I don't want my little girl hurt or scared or to think that I've deserted her. I know I can't protect her forever, I know she needs to learn to do things on her own, to learn independence.
Why did this time have to come so quickly? What the heck am I going to do with my time? I figured it out, 4 hours, 5 days a week...that's 20 hours a week, TO MYSELF! That's a part time job! My house will be spotless, I can tell you that much.
I can't wait to go and meet the bus here soon. To give her a big hug and hear about her day. I hope it was a good one. I hope she had fun. I can't believe how much I miss her. Even though Mr.Wonder didn't cry, he didn't want to stray too far from home this morning. Wanted to be here, just in case. He misses her as much as I do, even though he's not usually here during the day. We get to go and meet her teacher tomorrow evening. That lady better take good care of my baby.
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ps...WonderKid's outfit is the one that Mr.W got her when he was in Spain. She LOVES it! Her shirt says "I <3 candy!" She'd wear it everyday if she could.
update:
So, WonderKid has returned. She had a great day. I was so happy to see her smiling face through the window as the bus pulled up. I had lots of paperwork to go through since we weren't able to do the Meet the Teacher or the Open House before she actually started school, all due to the lovely Ernesto. I'm excited to meet her teacher, I have a feeling I will like her, especially after gettting a little note in WK's bag that said:
I gave your child a wink and smile as he entered my room today.
I know how hard it was for you to say "Good-bye" and for her to stay.
You've been with him for five years now and you've been a loving guide.
But now the time has come to leave her by my side.
Just know that as the bus drove away and tears down your cheeks might flow
I'll love you child as I would my own and help every child learn and grow.
Isn't that the sweetest thing...I almost started crying AGAIN when I read it. Maybe this school thing won't be so bad after all.

4 comments:

Heather said...

::hugs:: I just love that picture of her getting on the bus. I started feeling choked up just looking at it. What a precious little thing. Sounds like she has a great teacher too!!

Beth said...

Okay, you almost made me cry. I got choked up reading that poem to The Hubster. I can't believe she is in kindergarten already! The time has flown. That was a beautiful post, by the way.

Mrs. Chicky said...

That was a very sweet note from her teacher. I would have cried while reading it, along with crying at the bus stop, crying during the day, and crying once she got home.

EmilyJane said...

I absolutely love that picture of her getting on the bus. What a cutie pie. But I really feel for you, and every time I hear a mom recount their kid's departure on the first day of school I just get scared b/c I KNOW I will be bawling my eyes out when it happens for me. awwww, why do these precious little ones have to grow up so darn fast???