Sunday, May 28, 2006
Tough Decisions
4 more years...
Well, the package came back this week saying that Hub could re-enlist. So on Wednesday the 31st, he'll be heading up to Battalion to the career planners (Hub calls him the Career Jammer) office to do his re-enlistment ceremony. He doesn't need anything fancy...just wants to get it done. We've been talking a lot about what we're going to do over the next few years and where we want to go. There is some confusion about our bonus size...Hub heard it was a multiple of 1.5 but the Jammer told him it was a multiple of 1, so he's checking on it for him. Don't ask me what it means, I have no clue, but I know it's a difference of about $5,000. So let's hope for the former, shall we? Even though we won't get it. Ah, the military. I've been much less stressed since we've figured everything out. Waiting on God to take care of things is hard, but definitely worth the wait. Let's hope I realize that sooner next time, for I am sure there will be one. Things have been really good here. The Kid had a sleep over and Hub and I had some "us time" yesterday evening. We went to a BBQ at a friends and watched the UFC fights. Can't wait for the next one. I'm such a goober, I actually like those things. We're in one of the good times, which in military life can sometimes come few and far between, especially when they're deployed. I'm glad we have another year of not having to worry about that. There is at least one school Hub wants to go to within this year and he may be going to Rota, Spain in August to help train over there for 3 weeks. I think these mini-trips (if you will) are good. Not that I want him to leave, they still suck and I miss him desperately, but I think they will help the Kid in the long run. I know when we leave here not soon after we go where ever we're going, he'll be deploying for at least 6 months. When that time comes I can tell her, "Remember when Daddy took those trips for work? He always came back, right? He'll be back again. We can get through this together." Here's hoping she believes me. I know already that those times are going to be so hard for her. She already cries if he has to stay the night at work for Ops. "I don't want Daddy to work. I want him to come home," have been heard from her mouth many times. I'm so happy that she's feeling that need for him. There are still times where she doesn't listen to him or give him the cuddle time he wants with her. Like she's afraid he'll leave or that she's holding it back from him as a punishment. We're trying to explain that when he leaves it doesn't mean he doesn't want to be with us or that he doesn't love us anymore. That it's part of his job and nothing more. That he's rather be home hanging out with us than anything else. Let's hope that as she gets older she'll be able to understand it better, even if she doesn't like it.
Friday, May 26, 2006
Moving up & on...
Well, as of today...the Kid is offically no longer a preschooler. We had her end of year party for school today. We went to a gymnastic place and the Kid had a good time. She was a little grumpy, but what else ins new. She'll be starting Kindegarten this coming fall and it scares the living crap out of me. She's growing up on me and it's freaking me out. Like I don't see enough of this in the day to day stuff. Things she says, the attitudes or airs she puts on...she's like an actual person now. Not that she wasn't before. I think of her tying her shoes, reading, taking the bus and it makes me want to cry. She's actually doing math people!! She's adding in the back seat...going, "Mom, what's one plus one make?" "Count on your fingers hun." "One and one make...one, two. One and one make two!" This was out of the blue...she just started it a couple of days. I am so amazed at her. She blows my mind. There are days I get so irritated and wonder why I ever had kids...but one smile from her and I'm done. Her and her Daddy are much the same in that way. They can both un do me with a smile....and they both know it. I have such a great family! I hope I can remember that more often. If I stay away from that evil substance known as caffeine...otherwise known as...the devil in liquid form.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Happy Family!
Oh, and as you can see I can post pictures again, thanks to Boo for telling me how to get that all situated. Maybe you should tell Pup what you had me do so she can do them at home too. Just a thought.
When I grow up, I want to be...
I know, I know...there are alot of little girls that would like to be Wonder Woman, or guys wanting to be with her, for that matter. But I seriously love the character of Wonder Woman. Would I be able to get away with the outfit, probably not...but to be able to do things without fear. To fight crime and make the world a better place...heck yeah! Bracelets that deflect bullets, sign me up. I don't need to deflect real bullets, but harsh words or thoughts, how cool would it be to be able to flip your wrists up and fling that stuff right back at who ever sent it at you? How empowering that would be. I want to be a good mother...I'm not too worried about the wife thing, I've got that down pretty good. I have a great relationship with Hub...but with the Kid. I feel bad for her sometimes, having me as a Mom. I'm not trying to have a pity party...I just know that I don't have the patience that I'd like. It's gotten a little easier lately...I've been praying every morning for God to help through just one day. To be what she needs just for that day...it seems to be working. I want to be the best for her. That's what she deserves. She's such a great kid. A little chatty, but great. =) That's what's been hardest for me, she is always talking. Never stops! It's weird because I know I used to talk a lot and those that have seen me once I've consumed Caffeine know that I can still talk a lot. I actually used to talk really fast too. My sister's used to joke that I was like Six from Blossom...remember her? But now a days...not that much into talking when I'm around the house, but not the Kid. If she could talk 24 hours a day, she'd do it. No really, I'm not kidding around. I want to be able to take all that in stride. I want to be Wonder Woman, gosh darnit! Can't I just have this one little thing? Please!
Dear, Diary
Today was the most sassy day at school! Boo didn't speak to me all day. I swiftly forgot my homework for math class. My new friend Hub isn't talking to me anymore. And to top it all off, I forgot my lunch, so I had to borrow money to buy lunch. I hate borrowing money, I hate forgetting my homework, and I hate it when my friends don't talk to me! Holy Hot Shorts Batman!! I hope tomorrow is a better day!
Dear Diary,
Everything was much better today. Boo wasn't mad at me; she was just upset because her parents would not let her go to a party. She was spritely toward everyone. My math teacher said she'd only take one point off my homework because this was the only time I'd ever forgotten anything. She said everyone makes hot pink mistakes sometimes. My new friend Hub is talking to me. He was just busy helping out a sick friend. He had to gather all of his friend's homework. My friend who loaned me the money for lunch yesterday said I didn't have to pay him back, because I had loaned him money for lunch a while ago. I hope every day is a good as today!
Go ahead. Make your own madlib!! You know you want to.
This sucks!
I'll fill you in on our re-enlistment ordeal later today after I've talked to Hub, who is supposed to be talking with the career planner today.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
It's one of those spa meals, from lean cuisine...
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Mounting frustration...
Monday, May 08, 2006
Positive Polly
So, I'm trying something new. I'm tryin out a little thing called, "being positive." Have you ever heard of it? I know, I know...it's not a very popular thing these days. But I'm trying to help it make a comeback. So, in this post, I'm going to list some things about myself that I like...hard to believe but there are a few things I don't put myself down about. I won't even put the "things I want to improve on" list at the end of the "things I like" list...even though part of my is dying to. So here are the things I like about me (I'm not sure how long this list will be, as I'm flying by the seat of my pants right now.) I love:
1. My hair! I've been doing this new natural thing where I'm embracing the waves. It's nice not to have to blow dry after every shower.
2. The way I look when I actually do my make-up. I feel like a hot momma!
3. The way I make friends for life. I'll be the first to admit that I don't make good friends that easily...but once I do, I won't let go of them. They may let go of me sometimes, but I always think of them at odd moments...I guess that's called loyalty.
4. My memory. I am great at remembering things...commercials, movie lines, people's name and faces, funny stories and, sadly, gossip.
5. My sense of humor. I love that I get goofy and dorky. That I still think it's hilarious to do "Mr. Peepers" to Eric, just to make him laugh.
6. That I love movies. I love them all which means I relatively easy to please. I love that something so simple is such an escape for me.
7. That I'm not afraid of admitting when I need help or prayers. I know I'm not perfect and to be totally honest, I don't think I want to be. How boring that would be!
8. My laugh. It's so retarded it's funny. I even get a snort in there sometimes. I get embarrassed sometimes, but I get over it quick.
9. That I can forgive and forget pretty quickly/easily. When someone apologizes to me, I usually take it at face value and move on. Usually forgetting what I was mad about soon there after.
10. That I am quick to ask forgiveness. My sisters used to say I was a suck up because I'd apologize fairly quickly when I'd upset my Mom. God was just kind enough to give me a heart that sees it's wrongs right away. I hate hurting people and I love that I'm not afraid to admit it and ask for forgiveness.
I'll stop there. I don't want you all to think I'm that into myself. =) I've decided to make this a tag you're it type thing. If I list your name you have to post on your blog or email me 10 things you like about yourself. I think this will be a great way for us to focus on some of the positive in our places of venting. So, I tag...
Heather Y
Heather G
Michelle
Stephanie
Beth
Dani
Shari
Liz
Randy (the only dude to read this blog) I love you man!
14 things about my Mom...
1. She love to smile.
2. She has a sensitive heart.
3. She loves to do for others.
4. She raised 5 crazy girls & and helped to make 5 wonderful women.
5. She's loved my Dad for almost 40 years (not that hard though, Daddy's great!)
6. She loves God, even if she doesn't make it to church all the time.
7. She loves to laugh.
8. She makes beautiful quilts, she has such a gift.
9. She loves to plan (even if it doesn't all get done.)
10. She gives great hugs (and loves to teach the kids how to give them too!)
11. She's always willing to open her home up to us when we need it.
12. She loves her family, even when we forget to show that love back to her.
13. She makes the best deviled eggs & potato salad, EVER!
14. She's always willing to forgive.
Happy Mother's Day Moms!
Ok, I tag...
Michelle
Beth
Steph
Heather (sister)
Surcie
Sunday, May 07, 2006
To get a better sense of your child's uniqueness and significance from the moment of conception, you might try personalizing Psalm 139:13-16. You might even retype it, inserting you child's name, and then post it on your refrigerator:
"For you created [my child's] inmost being; you knit [him/her] together in my...womb. I praise you because [my child] is fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. [My child's] frame was not hidden from you when [he/she] was made in the secret place. When [he/she] was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw [his/her] unformed body. All the days ordained for [my child] were written in your book before one of them came to be."
I just thought this was really cool. I plan on putting it on my refrigerator. I think it will help me to remember just on special the Kid really is.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Poem
She came tonight as I sat alone..
The girl I used to be....
And she gazed at me with her earnest eye
And questioned reproachfully:
Have you forgotten the many plans
And hopes I had for you?
The great career,the splendid fame,
all the wonderful things to do?
Where is the mansion of stately height
With all its gardens rare?
The silken robes that I dreamed for you
And the jewels in your hair?
And as she spoke, I was very sad
For I wanted her pleased with me...
This slender girl from the shadowy past..
The girl that I used to be.
So gently rising, I took her hand
And guided her up the stairs..
Where peacefully sleeping, my babies lay
Innocent, sweet, and fair.
And I told her that these are my only gems,
And precious they are to me;
That silken robes is my motherhood
Of costly simplicity.
And my mansion of stately height is love,
And the only career I know
Is serving each day in these sheltered walls,
For the dear ones who come and go
And as I spoke to my shadowy guest,
She smiled through her tears at me.
And I saw the woman that I am now..
Pleased the girl I used to be.
Will I ever be happy with where I am? At any given time? Do I need to get a job and work to feel fulfilled? Will having more children give me what I'm looking for? I feel so lost most of the time and I don't like the feeling. I just don't know anymore...
Thursday, May 04, 2006
I might be just a little bit crazy!
I might not be taking one tonight, not sure if my legs will hold up. I may not be able to walk tomorrow, but I'm okay with that. It's a good kind of pain.
So, am I a little crazy? What do you think?
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
7 Common Sins
As promised here are a few little things from the book The 7 Common Sins of Parenting an Only Child, by Carolyn White. I know most that read this have more than one child but I think these are 'sins' that we can commit even with more children, trust me, I've seen it. The 7 sins are: Overindulgence, Overprotection, Failure to Discipline, Overcompensation, Seeking Perfection, Treating your Child as an Adult and Overpraising. Carolyn says that a lot of these sins happen because of the guilt parents feel for only having one child. Whether you feel guilty because you can't physically have one (even though you'd like to) or even if you've made the conscious decision to have only one child(like we have)...you can still feel guilty. Like, I sometimes feel I'm jipping the kid out of a little brother or sister (which she still asks for). I may feel this way for the rest of my life, I'll never know. There are times that I'm totally okay with my decision...there are times I doubt. So anyway, I think the sins are pretty self explanatory. The book goes a lot into giving examples and such. At the end of each section she does give you advice on how to avoid these sins. So I thought I'd write a few of these down. This may end up being a little long. So here we go, ways to avoid:
Overindulgence
- Don't try and give your child everything you didn't have growing up. She doesn't know what she's missing.
- Allow your child to do things "wrong." Let him learn from his mistakes, as long as it doesn't endanger him.
- Be good to yourself as well as you child. Make time for you. Your child will respect you for it.
- Learn to say no and mean it. Don't let your 4 year old litigator convince you to change what you know it best for her.
- Teach you child the value of money by encouraging her to work. Whether it be babysitting or doing extra chores for you.
Overprotection
- Discuss trust with your child. Have faith that your family's values system will inform your child's decisions as she grows.
- Let you child solve problems on her own. Don't always be there to pick up the pieces.
- Be cognizant of your child's true abilities at different stages of development. Give her opportunities to have adventures and opportunities to fail.
- Be aware of those times when it's important to let go. Then ease up without letting your child feel your fear. Let him find out how well he can manage on his own.
Failure to Discipline
- Honor the difference between discipline and punishment. You don't have to punish unless discipline falls apart.
- Rules should be clear and reasonable. Make the consequences of not following the rules just as clear. Your being a pushover will only make everyone miserable.
- Remember, meaningful discipline will not happen overnight.
- Children and parents are not created equal. We have more privileges than they do because we have earned them. They must earn theirs too.
- Reward good behavior. We all need the spiritual boost that positive reinforcement gives.
Overcompensation
- Don't compare you family to other families. Every family is different.
- Remember, having a sibling does not guarantee a constant companion for your child. As children grow older, they can grow apart and they may even dislike eachother.
- When friends and family make negative comments about only children, say, "Our family is perfect just the way it is." Educate them about only children.
Seeking Perfection
- Work on knowing who your child really is, instead of who you want them to be.
- separate love and approval. One does not depend on the other.
- Accept the fact that your child will sometimes make poor decisions and that she will learn from them. Perfection is for God, not humans.
Treating your kid like an Adult
- Work on making your home a place where your kid can be a kid.
- Don't give you child too much information about your relationship with your spouse. She only need to know that your there to guide and protect her.
- Children are not equipped to make adult decisions with you.
- Create boundaries. When your tempted to make your child part of your marriage or marital conflicts, think again. Remember that your child loves you both and shouldn't be made to choose.
Overpraising
- Make praise specific and descriptive.
- Offer constructive criticism along with specific praise.
- When your child tires something difficult, say things like, "Do your best, and don't be afraid if it doesn't work out. You can always try again." But saying, "Of course, you can do it" doesn't tell her you fully understand the elements of doing something tough. You're more likely to overwhelm her with pressure rather than giving her the confidence she needs.
Okay, well that's it. It's a really good book. For those with onlies (or with only one living with them) it's a must read. I'm so glad I read it. Hope this wasn't too boring.