Sunday, April 30, 2006

Sick Day

Today has been tough. Monkey has thrown up about 10 times today. And every time her tiny, skinny, little body contricts while she's heaving, my heart breaks. God has given me an extra measure of compassion and patience for her today. Normally when she doesn't feel good, she gets all whiney and I just get irritated. Today she was so quiet though. I hate that it takes days like this to make me see how irritable I usually get with her. I don't want to be one of those Mom's that is always cranky with her kids, kid in my case. I thought taking the caffeine and cutting some of the sugar out of my diet would help with my irritability. But so far it hasn't seemed to help. I keep praying that I'll change, or at least learn to control it as I did my temper. I just don't know how to go about it, or what to do. It's all very frustrating. It seems as though Monkey is getting better though. She's wanting to eat and has only thrown up once in the last 2 hours. I just hope that this extra 'stuff' I have enough of today will last through tomorrow when Monkey has her physical at the hospital. I hope that goes well.

2 comments:

Heather said...

:) Hang in there Kim...I have REALLY been struggling with my anger as well. The Lord is helping me through, but boy is it hard sorting through all the "real" reasons for my anger. *sigh* praying for you and your husband

Beth said...

I'm sorry she's been so sick. Sierra has had a fever the last couple of days, but PRAISE JESUS no puking. She's not much for up-chucking, really. I hope Monkey is feeling better soon. And I feel ya' on the anger/temper thing. You know I do. I love you! You're a great mom. And really (as long as you're not like mom) Ryelie is going to remember all the good times you guys had, and not the daily frustrations. At least, that's what I keep telling myself....